I miss u

2 more days to 23 months old. You are 10 kg and 82cm tall.

You look a tad small for your age. Don't know if I should be worried or not. But you wouldn't want to eat much :(

I miss you darling. I think you miss me too :)

Because Mummy is staying at 外婆's house to recuperate, I only go home during weekends. And today is weekend. Oh I miss you so much. We only see each other through Facetime (video calls).

At home, you will follow me around even to the toilet and when I bathe. You will sit at the small stool and watch me bathe and say shame shame.

You will also ask me to sit down and play games with you. For the whole day you just want me to accompany you.

You will like beside me in bed and ask me sing song for you or read to you. When on the sofa, you will sit on my lap and ask me write for you to see while you put your head on my shoulder.

I really hate to see you grow up so fast. I like this stage of yours. So tender, so loving and so real.

At least you still love Mummy for being botak. You even asked me wear my hat when I was changing to go out.

I miss you, Vera. The moment you leave with Daddy, I tear. I am so guilty that I am not with you most of the time. You grew up so much I didn't remember you can speak so many words already! You can form (chinese) sentences and can already remember what happened the day before.

You can say "爸爸生气”  which happened the day before. Now you also learning words.  You will repeat what we say.

You are very spoilt now too! Will beat and scratch grandmother. Nearing the terrible two, Daddy and Mummy are scratching our heads. We are first time parents. Now, I cannot be by your side and Daddy has to work till very late so we do not have the time to discipline you. I feel so guilty, really so guilty. I hope you don't be too spoilt and bad tempered.

We are trying to discipline you by talking to you nicely and reason out with you. Hope it works. Seems like it works when you are with us alone and grandparents not around. Hmmm.. Grandparents really spoil grandkids!

Photos of the day:

Both Botak

Can't wait to drive

Keep pestering to me to let you brush teeth

Daddy's little girl

Finally taking your nap. Sleep like an angel.

Today's weight.....

.... is 8.8Kg!!

At 16 months and 2 days old!

Poor Sick Vera

Vera started her fever on Friday 18 March 2011. 

During the weekends, her fever came on and off and there was no worsening of the situation. 

Took leave for two days to take care of her and today she sticks to me like a super glue. Maybe she is seeking some form of comfort that only a mother can provide (how amazing motherhood can be!)

She was very weak the whole day and woke up at 8am. Refusing to sleep, probably due to her phlegm discomfort. Until around 2pm, finally coaxed her to sleep on my bed (she is used to "yaolan").

However at 2.45pm, she coughed and vomit. This startled her and she woke up crying non-stop. While the mess hasn't been cleared up, she vomit again.

Blessing in disguise - She is more active after the two vomit incident. And when I brought her down for a walk, she vomit at the void deck (ooopsie!)

Pray that she will recover soon, my poor little baby. She has lost weight and her face has sharpen (not good for a baby huh!)

How heavy are you?

And you are 8.2 kg now. Abit on the small side :)

The old folks keep wondering where did all the food goes to? You eat 3 solid meals a day with fruits in between as snacks. And you drink 150ml of milk at 7am, 10am, after lunch (4-6pm), and before bedtime, but still so small size!

Your cousin baby (Kayden) at 5 mths old is already bigger size than you! Oh dear!

But I always emphasise that you are a very active baby. And active is important! So you are just a petite little girl  :)

Small size baby

10 months 3 weeks baby.

Weighing at only 7.7kg..

Two occurrences that people commented you looked like a 4 month old baby!

Where did all the food goes to?

Labour

Vera "popped" out of me on 29 Dec 2009.. What an exciting day! EDD was supposed to be on 11 Jan 2010. And I hoped Vera could be borned in 2010 so that she would have a headstart advantage to her peers but, oh well, she decides to come meet papa and mama earlier!

The whole labour process was drama-mama! Actually on 28 Dec 2009 (Monday), there was slight show (bleeding) appearing, so I decided to rest at home and wait for D-Day from 29 Dec 2009 onwards (my maternity leave starts on 4 Jan 2010). Since EDD was supposed to be on 11 Jan, I reckoned I still have some time to have a hair cut and do some pedicure and facial so that I will feel prettier during confinement.

On 29 Dec 2009, I still went for lunch with Wengfai! Then contraction starts from 3pm and Dear Hubby and me decides to visit the doc. He puts me on the CTG scan for one hour and concluded that I could have a false contraction. He asked me to choose to stay in hospital or go home to wait for more pain. However, he could not guarantee that I could deliver within these 2 days. And if I could not deliver, I will need to be induced!

Oh well, so two of us blur blur stupid stupid went home...... and the torture of contractions begins at home from 6pm......

At 9pm, the pain was too much to bear.. I was squirming in bed and trying all sorts of positions (sounds wrong though) to make myself more comfy but the pain was unbearable.. For those who ask me to describe the pain - 50 times of your need-to-rest-in-bed-and-eat-panadol-most-painful-menses-cramp. GRRRR

So I quickly changed and decides to head to the hospital. And guess what? A huge show came out!! (means the blood plug).. Wah.. sibei ganchiong.!!. Luckily we already packed our hospital bag because we went to the hospital in the afternoon thinking we might be asked to admit.

My poor hubby drove at top speed (not very fast because Singapore's traffic is horrible) as fast as he could while I was at the back of the car SCREAMING!! SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM!!!!

Finally when reaching the hospital, my stupid waterbag burst! Poor car is a little wet but heng most of the water is soaked by my dress!

When I reached hospital at 9.45pm, I delivered at 10.30 pm. Only a short 45 minutes! Of course I chose to take epidural. In fact, I was DEMANDING it. But it was too late, I was already 9 cm dilated!!!! (10 cm to give birth). I scolded the nurse, scolded everybody upside down! I screamed until my throat is sore and "pop" comes Vera (what a relieve!)

Weighing at a mere 2.375kg, Vera is abit underweight. So she has to be on a strictly 3-hourly feed. Doc blames me for not resting enough. But oh well, I will be resting for a one whole month of confinement, of course I have to go and enjoy while I am still free!

Vera's first photo when popped out. See her purple hands!

My first photo with Vera

See her staring at the camera

Signs of victory. Yay! (I was abit concussed cos of the laughing gas)